Letting Go

I have had people telling me all my life to "let go"!

I read someplace "If you want to be at peace, if you want to feel the love of God in your heart, if you want to savor the present moment, then just let go of all the constraints you have put upon yourself.”

It is so simple, is it not? Yes to someone who says, it is, but to practice what you preach, is it that simple??

All these years,

· I have held on to my desires.

· I have held on to what I thought I needed.

· I have held on to whatever promised me happiness.

· I have held on to my possessions.

· I have held on to my image of who I am.

· I have held on to my ideas of what is right.

· I have held on to my theories.

· I have held on to my beliefs.

· I have held on to my attitudes.

· I have held on to my judgments.

· I have held on to the past.

· I have held on to the future.

· I have held on to relationships.

· I have held on to material things.

· I have held on to my grievances.

· I have held on to my fears.

· I have held on to my loves.

· I have held on to my lovers.

· I have held on to money.

· I have held on to my thoughts.

· I have held on to my illusions.

· I have held on to memories.

· Last, but not the least, I have held on to my life.

Is this wrong?? I don’t know! I have always had a sense of security (maybe false, maybe real) by holding on!! To put it simply, I was scared to let go! I read a story where a climber holds on to a rope for his dear life, when GOD asks him to let go. He doesn’t listen and holds on. Next day his corpse is found by rescuers, holding on to the rope, just two feet above the ground.

It all depends, I feel, some ropes are necessary to hold, but many others can and should be let go.

Past couple of weeks has been a real eye-opener of sorts and I have figured out some of the ropes that I have to let go. I am now feeling more liberated and at peace with myself.

I do not have a constant turmoil inside me.

I smile a lot, not the superficial smile I always wear, but a genuine smile.

I am not fighting myself over things I do not like, but still have to do.

I am not frustrated if things do not go my way.

For those of you who know me well, I have got missed calls in the night! Yes, I have slept and did not pick up the calls. For those of who don’t know me so well, I have a bad habit of picking up any call I get, even when I am asleep, I wake up to receive that call, even if my phone just vibrates! JEarlier, the only time I have not picked up calls was when I was medicated to sleep!

So I guess it helps to let go, but not all the things....

:)