My Marriage.....

Well, this post certainly is not an invitation to attend my marriage!!! As and when it gets decided, I'll let you people know personally!! The inspiration to write this post is my MOM!!

I have come to Chennai, (a city which I hate for its weather) and it is not even 24 hours when my Mom decides to assault me with pictures of eligible brides. Fair and beautiful all of them. I am actually spoilt for choices.

What is the right time to get married? I have been grappling with this question for sometime to find an answer. I am a kind of person who will not interfere into another's life unless and until I am specifically asked to. Because, I believe that we are all grown ups and know how to handle things. Whenever I stumble, I learn, whenever I need help, I ask!! Life has been that simple for me and I do not try to make it any more complicated.

So now coming back to the question, when and whom should I get married to?? Well for me some things are very important:

-- Both of us must have love for each other and know each other very well.

-- Trust for each other.

-- Both of us should know to handle and should handle responsibilities.

-- We should be with each other through thick and thin.

-- Both should have the same value systems.

I don't ask for much but I think these are quite an important requisite.

What kinda freaks me out is the fact that this decision that is going to effect my entire life, no wait my, my parents their parents, my children's and possible their children's lives is to be taken in 2 or 3 meetings!!!!!Man this is seems like it is straight out of a Spielberg movie!!!

Hats off to all you happily married couples out there!!!!

Till I find the answers to these questions or find someone I think marriage can wait... 

Maybe in this life or the next I'll find.....

PLEASE ACCEPT ME THE WAY I AM ......

I May Not Always Say The Things You Want Me To Say
I May Not Always Do The Things You Want Me To Do
I May Not Always Be The Person You Want Me To Be
But I Am Someone Who Cares About You...
And Its Important To Me To know That You Care About Me

I Want To Please You...
I Want To Make You Happy...
But I Also Want To Be Me...

I Am Who I Am...
I Am What I Want To Be...
I Am Pleased With Myself...

SO PLEASE ACCEPT ME THE WAY I AM ......

PEG AFTER PEG

Read this a really long time ago someplace, hopefully have been able to recall it properly..

 I never take risk while drinking

When I come from office in the evening, wife is cooking
I can hear the noise of utensils in the kitchen
I stealthily enter the house
Take out the bottle from my black cupboard 
Shivaji Maharaj is looking at me from the photo frame
But still no one is aware of it
Becoz I never take a risk

 I take out the glass from the rack above the old sink
Quickly enjoy one peg
Wash the glass and again keep it on the rack 
Of course I also keep the bottle inside my cupboard
Shivaji Maharaj is giving a smile

 I peep into the kitchen
Wife is cutting potatoes
No one is aware of what I did
Becoz I never take a risk

 I: Any news on Iyer's daughter's marriage
Wife: Nope, she doesn't seem to be that lucky. Still they are looking out for 
her

I again come out; there is a small noise of the black cupboard
But I don't make any sound while taking out the bottle 
I take out the glass from the old rack above sink
Quickly enjoy one peg

 Wash the bottle and keep it in the sink
Also keep the Black Glass in the cupboard
But still no one is aware of what I did
Becoz I never take a risk 

I: But still I think Iyer's daughter's age is not that much
Wife: What are you saying? She is 28 yrs old... like an aged horse
I: (I forgot her age is 28) Oh Oh...

 I again take out potatoes out from my black cupboard 
But the cupboard's place has automatically changed
I take out the bottle from the rack and quickly enjoy one peg in the sink

 Shivaji Maharaj laughs loudly
I keep the rack in the potatoes & wash Shivaji Maharaj's photo & keep it in 
the black cupboard

 Wife is keeping the sink on the stove
But still no one is aware of what I did
Becoz I never take a risk

 I: (getting angry) you call Mr. Iyer a horse? If you say that again, I will 
cut your tongue...!
Wife: Don't just blabber something, go out and sit quietly...

I take out the bottle from the potatoes
Go in the black cupboard and enjoy a peg
Wash the sink and keep it over the rack 
Wife is giving a smile

 Shivaji Maharaj is still cooking
But still no one is aware of what I did
Becoz I never take a risk

 I: (laughing) So Iyer is marrying a horse!!
Wife: Hey go and sprinkle some water on your face... 

 I again go to the kitchen, and quietly sit on the rack
Stove is also on the rack
There is a small noise of bottles from the room outside

I peep and see that wife is enjoying a peg in the sink
But none of the horses are aware of what I did 
Becoz Shivaji Maharaj never takes a risk

 Iyer is still cooking
And I am looking at my wife from the photo and laughing
Becoz I never take what???

What is a Kiss . .

Can you taste the essence that simple delight..?

When you close your eyes and the moment is right

 

When the world we belong to is forgotten so fast 
As time moves so slow as the present becomes the past

 

My lips upon yours that emotional embrace 
My minds in a tumble, my hearts in a race

 

My face in your hands, as the energies arise
A moment so lustful, a kiss mesmerized

 

My eyes are closed yet I see your soul 
As it enters my body and makes me whole

 

I taste your life I taste you slow 
I taste forever in a kiss I know

 

A feeling so familiar yet somehow always new
That feeling of attraction that bonding for two

 

A kiss, what is it..? What greatness it holds
A sacred secret, as destiny unfolds

 

The passion, the pleasure, that simple delight
Yet a kiss is a kiss when the moment is right . . .

Alcohol is BAD!!!

I know alcohol is bad, but I take alcohol only on days starting with "T". Tuesday, Thursday and Today. Tommorow, Taturday, Tunday and every Tingle day.
Tood Tay.....................
:)
--Anonymous

Bangalore railway station....

I was at Bangalore's Railway station the other day. While waiting for my train, I notice a kiosk selling cookies. I bought a box and started searching for a seat. Finally I found a seat next to a hefty gentleman on whose right I sat. I put the cookies beside me on the bench, and picked up the book I was reading from my bag and decided to enjoy my cookies. I leaned over to my left and pulled out the box of cookies. As I did it, that gentleman starts watching me intensely. He stares as I open the box and his eyes followed my hand as I picked up the cookie and ate it. Just then he reaches over and took one of my cookies from the box, and ate it! I was more than a little surprised at this. Actually, I am dumbstruck.

He did not stop at one cookie, but for every one cookie I took, he took one. I was like , what the hell?? What is this guy? Crazy? Greedy? He's got some nerve! But I was not able to say or do anything as I was a little scared of this guy. Can you imagine the words I would have used to describe this man to you guys?

Meanwhile, we both continue eating the cookies until there's just one left. To my surprise, the man reaches over and takes it. But then he does something unexpected. He breaks it in half, and gives half to me. After he's finished with his half he gets up, and without a word, he leaves.

I thought to myself, "Does this really happen?" I was just sitting there dumbfounded and still hungry. So I went back to the kiosk and bought another box of cookies. I came back to my seat and placed the cookies next to me. As I glanced down towards the bench on my right, I saw the original box of cookies -- still unopened.
Only then did I realize that when I reached down earlier, I had grabbed his box of cookies by mistake.

Now what do you think of the man? Generous? Tolerant? I just experienced a profound paradigm shift. I started seeing things from a new point of view.

Is it time to change your point of view? Now, think of this story as it relates to your life. Things may not be what they seem.

Bliss.....

I never thought I would be able to see this sight early in the morning.

Only my phone VGA camera with me, I did the best I could do!!

Happiness.......

I am very happy today for 3 reasons.....
one I don't know
two I don't remember
three I'll tell you later
:)

My experiment with BMTC....

After years of traveling in autos and getting myself and my purse abused, I finally decide to use the BMTC service to reach office. I picked out today to start the adventure. I woke up normally and left my place at 0820hrs. I had not even reached the bus stop, when I saw one bus going past. It was almost empty and if at all my leg was alright, I would have made a dash and caught. But alas! not everything goes your way!! But still, I did not loose hope. I stood at the stop for hardly 5 mins, when another of those comes my way and stops. I stand by the door in the centre, coz that was the place through which I used to get into buses, eons ago. But that door never opened and the bus just went away! I did not expect that and was too flabbergasted to do anything!!
I still did not loose hope and waited. During this time, I got company at the bus stop. One old lady, a techie guy (you can say it by the way they dress up and flaunt their company IDs) and a beautiful female. I smiled at them as they came in, the old lady returned my smile, the techie guy looked at me as though I am an alien and the girl, she just gave me a smirk as though I was a road romeo (maybe I look like one, but I can't help it!!). It was then that I realized, like the bus entrances, the commuters and their attitude, too have changed.
Thankfully, another bus came along soon. Now I just followed the crowd to get into the bus. They got in through the front door, only then did I realize that that bus did not have a conductor, and the driver himself collects the money for the tickets. I pay for the ticket and get a seat to sit!!
Here again I faced the same dilemma, " to smile or not not to smile". I decided that I still need time to understand people so decided not to! I put on my headphones to listen to "Pori Tapori Rachna" and pick up Cohelo and read through several chapters.
I asked the driver to drop me off at the Richmond circle which is around 800 meters from my office, but that chap stopped the bus at Pallavi Theatre which is around 1.5Kms from my office, as the crow flies. On road actual distance is a little more that 2.2Kms. I decide that the morning walk is good for me and I walk and somehow reach the office.
The total time I have spent from the time I left my place to the time I reach office is around 75mins. If I had taken an Auto, the time is anywhere between 30mins to 90mins, depending on how lucky I am and how fast i can convince someone to go to the place where my office is!
The total money spent is actually less than 10%.
So now I have decided to continue my adventurous journey in BMTC for the time being, at least in the mornings, when I have so much of time at hand!!

Autos Auotos everywhere, but not one to go to your place......

Well this is not something new!! I guess almost all of us have faced it and will continue facing it!!
Faulty meters are something that we have learnt to accept in our stride. I live in the south west corner (HSR Layout) of the Silicon Valley (B'lore), it is only 11 to 12 kilometers (depending on which way I take) from the place where I work. Earlier to the AUTO fare hike I used to shell out anywhere between Rs. 66/- to Rs.75/- for the trip to office. Back home was always a nightmare, as it is always after sunset that I leave the office. "Sir, HSRaaa?", is the usual reply when I plead them to come to my place. Depending on the emphasis of the "R", the excess rates used to vary. There have been instances where I have shelled Rs. 150/- to reach home, (I know sounds crazy, but, after spending 2 and half days in the office, I just wanted to go home and hit the bed).
But now after the AUTO fare hike these guys sport a rate conversion card, that is supposed to show the new fare for the old. But surprisingly, I see that the fares in the meters for the same trip to office from home is now anywhere between Rs. 75/- to Rs. 95 /-. On top of that they show the conversion chart and fleece money.
As though this is not enough, some of them have the audacity to ask for Rs. 20/- more on the meter. I have complained umpteen times in police stations inside Bangalore (Bengalooru is the politically correct word nowadays), Frazer town, Austin town, Indiranagar, Airport road, HSR Layout, Koramangala, Rajajinagar, Malleshwaram are some of the police stations where I have lodged complaints. But nowadays I have stopped doing it, after I realized that this way the cops fleece money from the Auto-fella and let him go. So this fella will have a grudge and will invariably take it out on the next customer that he gets by demanding excess money!
I guess it is a vicious circle. I guess I am chasing an UTOPIA, by wanting to travel fairly in the streets of Bengalooru. There is a saying in Kannada, the official language of Bengalooru, "hootitha gunna sootaru hogala". Meaning the characteristics with which one is born refuses to leave you even if you are burnt. So till the day Auto fellas don't tamper with meter, take you to any place you want to go and till they speak to you cordially.........

My Heart Goes Out to You

Life's many wonders,
Moulded into one being -- YOU!
A soft glow,
In the early morning light,
Always new,
A fragrant breath,
Of the fresh wind blowing,
In my face and in my hair,
Brings me a moments happiness,
But it is never lasting.

You remain to me a vision,
A beautiful dream,
I wish it were true.

You are divine to hold,
But always out of reach,
I wish I could touch you,
Feel you, hold you,
But I know it could never be true.

You never seem to notice,
The tears in my eyes,
Nor feel my broken heart.

I know I could never forget you,
for you'll always have a place in my heart,
And it is for you to remember,
I'll always care for you!!

Living Miles Away

Living Miles away from you,
I still can feel,
The music of your heart,
And the softness of your lips,
All the time.

Your eyes.........
Fill my days with color and fun,
The dark cloud in the sky,
The deep enchanting woods,
And the dancing peacock,
Are the only comparisons I can make.

I Love You dear.......
As the boatman loves the sea,
Even when it roars,
And the waves are wild.

As the bird loves its shelter,
Against the cyclone.

Living miles away from you,
I can still hear the verse that you sang for me.

I can see your cascading hair,
Streaming down your back.

Living miles away, you live in my heart.
My dear.......never,
Never ever feel,
We are living miles apart.

Hair Yesterday.... Gone Today!!!

Yes, that is my story!! I have been getting bouquets and brickbats for the new mane style that I am donning.
A frequent question that I have been asked, "Why did you cut your shoulder length hair to less than one cm?".
Let me try and answer it here.....
Frankly speaking, I have no idea why I cut it!!
I mean is it necessary to have a rhyme and reason for anything and everything that you do. I just did it for the heck of it.
When I had longer hair there was a greater possibility of me having a bad hair day. I had to take care of it everyday. It was really difficult and cumbersome exercise, made more difficult by the fact that I had almost a curly hair.
These reasons as to what difficulties with long hair.
It had its own advantages too. If properly groomed, people looked up to you, admired the patience that you had. Your hair was the first thing anybody would notice when you walked into a room or party. You would invariably get a second glance, some out of admiration, out of pure frustration or even irritation or pure unadulterated jealously, but a second glance was for sure.
You could change your hairstyle at the drop of a hat, have a ponytail or leave them open, comb them tight with a hair band or just spike them up.
But now I am not spoilt for choices. I have but one and only one style that I can keep up!! :)

Maybe after 2 or 3 months I can do something better with my hair. Until then let my mane rest in peace...........

Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?

This is a Latin phrase, simply translated means, "Who will guard the guards?".

This was a question put across to Socrates, when he described the perfect society. According to him, the main character of the work, relies on laborers, slaves and tradesmen. The guardian class is to protect the city. So the question was Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?
Plato has a unique answer, he says and I quote "They will guard themselves against themselves. We must tell the guardians a noble lie. The noble lie will inform them that they are better than those they serve and it is therefore their responsibility to guard and protect those lesser than themselves. We will instill in them a distaste for power or privilege, they will rule because they believe it right, not because they desire it."

Well, this is the question that has arisen in my mind time and again!! Today morning, I felt the need to answer this question. I was on my way to the office in an auto. We were waiting at a signal even though it was green. I learnt during my school days that green in traffic signal means you have to go. Maybe it has changed over the period of time. I don't know.
Anyways coming back to what I was saying, I saw a policeman (I think he was one as he was wearing the uniform of one), who held up the traffic and was signaling the vehicles from the other lanes to move. There was no Ambulance in any of those lanes, nor was there a VIP coming (Oh ya, we have to make way for them, after all they are our rulers). Why did he do that?? I have no idea. Maybe he had a bad morning at home or maybe someone pissed him from our line. I dunno!!
So I come back to the question again!! Who will take him to task for eccentrically holding up the traffic??
This is not an isolated incident! How many of us have been caught by the traffic police and for no reason harassed endlessly till we pay him a little something?? How many of us can fearlessly walk into a police station to report that our cell phone or vehicle is stolen??
Can we lodge a case against our leaders and sleep peacefully??
I dunno, maybe I am asking for too much but these questions are in my mind.....

Falling Dry Leaves

I don't know how you're feeling
Now that we are apart,
But I am so sad.,
Coz I miss your arms,
Which would hold me tight.
I am thinking so hard,
If I ever hurt you?,
But I know,
I even loved you in my dreams.
But now there is no turning back.
You walk away, slamming the door,
Falling like dry leaves,
To be crushed under the feets',
From your LOVE tree.

Like a soldier fighting in the desert,
Giving his life for others,
Well, I spent every moment on you,
How could you leave me blue,
I need you to show me the direction.
Baby, don't think, Don't even think,
I love you for physical attraction,
I never needed your body,
To satisfy me,
Just a smile from you was fine with me,
But now when I call your name,
I don't get any answers,
When I see our snap separated and torn,
I fall down on the floor,
Crying like I never cried before,
Falling like dry leaves,
To be crushed under the feets',
From your LOVE tree.

Falling like dry leaves,
To be crushed under the feets',
From your LOVE tree.

Truth???

"That is life for you. Someone always waiting for someone who never comes home. Always someone loving something more than that thing loves them. And after a while you want to destroy whatever that thing is, so that, it can't hurt you any more"

This is something that I read as a part of my English curriculum when I was in 7th standard. These are lines from a story the Dragon and the Lighthouse. I don't know why I was pretty much stuck by these lines....
Now I realize why??

Is it the truth or is it just a piece of my fractured imagination!!
I dunno!!
Still searching for answers........

The MAGIC of BELIEF

I realized some of these things and many others were learnt along the way.... So here goes!!

01. Pull yourself together.
02. Come to a decision.
03. Be unrelenting in your efforts and unbending in your willpower, defeatism and dejection cannot affect you.
04. Convince yourself of the hard fact that you can achieve excellence irrespective of:
---- What you have achieved so far; and
---- Other people's rating of you!!
05. Do not allow people's negative criticism to take hold of you and make you its victim.
06. Believe that you have vast kingly powers. You have to charge your whole personality - your every nerve, your every fibre - with this power packed thought!!
07. THINK BIG BECOME BIG!!
08. Ask GOD to pity the people who unintentionally stand in your way, - yes pity them, and give them wisdom. Soak your mind in sympathy which they badly need because they themselves are victims of unhealthy criticism and feelings of guilt and regret.
09. Never ignore the instructive part of all the criticism and ridicule that you encounter. Pay heed to it : do all you can to improve yourself, but there stops the matter.
10. Be happy and always wear a smile on your face.

:)

Why???

It is half past midnight!! Bleary eyed, I am sitting and staring at the monitors in my office cubicle!! Working, voluntarily and not complaining about it. Working on weekends as though it is a working day!!
I don't have to impress my boss or prove to my colleagues that I am good. (I have one of the best teams in the world to work with (No pun intended!!)).
This is not something that happened to me on a blue moon, it happens almost every day.
Why??
I have no idea..
This is the answer that I am trying to search through this.

My girlfriend ditched me coz i cud not give her enough time, my friends complain all the time that I am too preoccupied, I see my MOM once in 2 months, though she stays just 200 miles away. Why??

I have always done it out of my own interest, and everytime invariably I have been utilized by people. I know it and still can't change myself!!

Hopefully someday I will change and spend more time on myself!!
:)